on sunday..

because Allah,,,, :) what else? even I was sad Allah always helped me because I always think Allah in my heart hmm,, I know I'm not the best person, not the best moeslim,.. but Allah always in my heart ever after,,, always make me smile, laugh, make me happy and always gave me the best way out and lesson.. :)
what has I did, it's very false, what I think 'bout my life it's very false. You know, I never love somenthing in myself, never thankful to God, often waste my time only to other people, never think the best for my life, really it's make so sad now...
ever I think about my life, asked my heart what I want, but sure its always failed, sometime my heart always confused, what should I do ??? even I dk, who am I ???? it's very hurt, dk who u are,ck hahaaaahaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :(
everything will be okay now,, I just need to get used to everything then change
ITS JUST ABOUT TIME, right me? never mind if all the way life about me must fall and I must feeling hurt, never mind with then I can have so muchall about experience life :)
actually I want write something positiv can I do, but I afraide something it can't be happen, really I afraid to write something about positive me, afraid if it's just be My DREAM and can't be true, wish me luck every one....
one again I say " I want be better person, want be strong girl, want every thing be okay, want Allah beside me always.."
I WANT BE HAPPY TOTTALY,,,,,,, !!!!! but no one can understand, if I want do that, sure always failed. yeah,,, yeah,,, because me lazy girl? hmm, just dream and dream, never know when it's dream come true... oh wish me luck one more time,,,,
i dont want feel like this, enough this scars because "orang-orangan sawah, Mr.V and para nini"

I WANT BE HAPPY,,,,!!!!!!