Dear Mr. V (again) heheeeeee

hay,, how are you ? ? (heeeee pede)
Honestly I reallly mis you.. hohooo. eh ya, gimana sama dia? baek ajah kan?.
owh sorry, disini gua gak mau ngebahas tentang permasalahn aneh kita tao pun your girlfriend, hm.. adill kan,, hehee ;)
sebenernya paling enak kalo ngomong langsung ya, hahaaaaaa tapi kan gak mungkin banget itu,, wkwkwkw. kita kan uda gak tegoran sejaaaakkk,,,,,,,,,,, kapan ya??? luapa gua, tapi yg jelas itu uda lama bngrt,,, hahaaaa
hmmm... gua pengn ngomong sesuatu yang dr dulu harusnya gua omongin ke elo. SORRY and Thanks.
ya,,,
maaf karena selama ini gua selalu bertingkah over di depan lo, maaf karena gua selalu aja ngerrepotin lo, maaf karena telinga dan pundak lo cuma gua pake saat gua sedih, maaf karena tingkah gua menjadi semakin gak nyaman buat lo. maaf karena ke egoisan gua selama ini, maaf karena gua ngejadiin lo sebagai obsesi gua, maaf atas rasa suka gua.
dan
terimaksih buat semuanya,terimakasih untuk obrolan di tangga itu (still remember where we talk for the first time?) terimakasih uda ngijinn gua brelindung di belakang pundak lo, terimakasih selalu ada saat gua rapuh, terimakasih uda ngajarin gua banyak hal. terimaksih untuk kesabaran lo selama ini ngedengerin gua. terimakasih uda bersedia ngorbanini diri lo cuma demi keegoisan gua remember " lo boleh benci dan lupain gua, asal lo bisa ngilangin ke egoisan lo" terimakasih untuk semua itu, yang lo tau itu awal dari keanahen pertemann kita sekarang?)
terimakasih untukperjalanan gading-talngpadang-talangpadng-gading selma empat jam. terimakasih uda ngenalin gua sama eta (lo percaya gak kalo gua bilang gak pernah ngeliat eta lagi semenjak kita marahan. uuft ). terima kasih uda ngasih gua insting semesta yang kuat tentang lo.
Terimaksih uda ngebuat gua setegar ini, terimakasih uda nyuekin gua selama mungkinn, terimakasih uda selalu ngingetin gua "kalo kita saudara" terimaksih untuk sms " hey ini reymond yang smsm kok gak dibls" terimakasih untuk sms itu, lo tau gua seneng lo masih inget kalao secara sepihak gua ngebabtis lo menjadi RAYMOND hanya untuk gua,,, hahahahaaaaaaaa
terimaksih juga untuk tiupan lo di kepala gua..
terimakasih
:)

lo tau mendadak hidup gua di penuhin sma nama lo, ckckck. lo tau gua bukn orang yg bisa nyembunyiin persaan gua, lo tau kan gimana anehnya gua kalo lagi cerita,,, hahahahaaa
hiks,,, gua gak tega harus ngeliat lo lagi, gak tega terus trsnyum tp hati gua nangis,,,,,,, gua gak mau mikirin lo terus, ngejadiin lo obsesi gua. gak mauuu........ karena lo nyata. ada di depan gua sekarang,, tapi kenapa mata gua gak bisa lagi natap lo, gak bisa lagii tersenyum buat lo,,, KENAPA INSTING SEMESTA GUA GAK BISA ILANG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


CEPET SEMBUH KEK HATI GUA,,!!

because Allah,,,, :) what else? even I was sad Allah always helped me because I always think Allah in my heart hmm,, I know I'm not the best person, not the best moeslim,.. but Allah always in my heart ever after,,, always make me smile, laugh, make me happy and always gave me the best way out and lesson.. :)
what has I did, it's very false, what I think 'bout my life it's very false. You know, I never love somenthing in myself, never thankful to God, often waste my time only to other people, never think the best for my life, really it's make so sad now...
ever I think about my life, asked my heart what I want, but sure its always failed, sometime my heart always confused, what should I do ??? even I dk, who am I ???? it's very hurt, dk who u are,ck hahaaaahaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :(
everything will be okay now,, I just need to get used to everything then change
ITS JUST ABOUT TIME, right me? never mind if all the way life about me must fall and I must feeling hurt, never mind with then I can have so muchall about experience life :)
actually I want write something positiv can I do, but I afraide something it can't be happen, really I afraid to write something about positive me, afraid if it's just be My DREAM and can't be true, wish me luck every one....
one again I say " I want be better person, want be strong girl, want every thing be okay, want Allah beside me always.."
I WANT BE HAPPY TOTTALY,,,,,,, !!!!! but no one can understand, if I want do that, sure always failed. yeah,,, yeah,,, because me lazy girl? hmm, just dream and dream, never know when it's dream come true... oh wish me luck one more time,,,,
i dont want feel like this, enough this scars because "orang-orangan sawah, Mr.V and para nini"

I WANT BE HAPPY,,,,!!!!!!

I don't write anything,, just want opend my Blog and see you latter,,,

LOOK at my day now, everything RANDOM....
in morning I was happy feeling but after I at school I was bad mood.. huh!! I don't knew why, but condition at my Class Profoundly make me bored!!
so I just still writing something at my "dairy" '___" just Writing...writing and writing,, just it can I did. MADE ME SO SO BORED !! and just listen Mr. V said:blaa...blaaa...blaaa,, blaaaa..and the end He said"I HAD GIRLFRIEND now,,!!" huh!! He didn't knew How my Heart hurt.. it's very hurt !! you know!!
so my remaining time I just keep silent.. :( *I don't know what I do?
Looking him more made me hurt :( but I still smile,,,smile,, yeah just try to smile again...
but in My heart really Hurt,, :( I want loose to my class,, i don't want there but what else can I do??? I never hide my "LOVE" but I just close My feel,, yeah just it Can I did... huh

and i'm went to home with bad feeling again.. :( :( :(
and had rain here, actually I really want to cry but I don't know I can't cry in rain,,
so I let the rain humify myself :(
really I very sad Now,, I want talk something with some one but I can't,,, :(

and i say BISMILLAHIRAHMANIRAHI....
this is just need time,, yeah i just need time make My heart be better.. don't be worry its just about FEEL and My heart i want be Stronger Now... I must make my life interesting.. okey..
I'll be okay,,, I just need a long time,,

KEEP SPIRIT,,,,,, :)

LOVE
Sara Dea

nb: may be I will write my story with English Language, I want my English be better,, yeah,,
WISH ME LUCK OK.. :D

iNI dia lagu perjuanagn yang akuu ssukaaaaaa,,,, :)

I'm okay....
okeee...I'm Fine, sakit sih emg, remuk emg,, gak jujur sih Mr. v itu.. heheeee but nothing, uda biasa.. gak papah beneran ajh,, Believe me ya.. its my honest.. hohoo
emg sakit rasanya,, not weel, ANcur gak karuan,,, but aku I have a much dream,, gua mau ngurusin masalh gua sama ALLAH dulu lah,, gak kelar2 nih,, gua mau semua ini berjalan karena hati gua !! and I juat want to follow my heart..
karena perjuangn gua,, sakitt emg,, tp gak ppah,,, gua cuma mau tersenyum mandangin langit sambil berzikir sekarg,, gua mau dket2 sm Allah,, biar Allah gak mrh lagi sama gua,, heheeee BISMILLAHIRAHMANIRAHIM.... :)

KEEP SPIRIT de,,,,,

PENGEN MATI RAsANYA Y ALLAH,,,,, :((((((( SEMUA PADA NGELUARIN AIR MATAA,,,
gak tega sma semua ini,,, butuh transferan energi,, butuuhh bgttttt,, :( semua dateng saat yang bersamaan,, gua takut gak kuat untuk seceria dulu lg,, gua takut gak bisa senyum kayag dlu lagi,, gua takut semua ninggalin gua,,,, aaaghggghhhhhhhhhhh,,,!!!!!!!
kepala gua nyut2tan saat ini,,, sakittt rasanya,, susah buat di jelasin kalo aer mata uda jatoh,,
butuh transferan energii,, energi yang banyakk,,,,, :( Y ALLAH,,, Y ALLAH..... Y ALLAH,,,,,,,,,,,,
Y ALLAH,,,, TRANSFRN AKU ENERGI YG BANYAK Y ALLAH,,,, 040810 saat dmn semua keluarga gua ngeluarin air mata,,,, Y ALLAH,,,,, :( semuanyaaaaaa Y ALLAH,,,,

PENGEN MATIII RASANYAAAAA,,,,,,,, :( :(